I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry...

Nn...Rena's all right for now, but the back of her neck still hurts a little. Mi-ch...

Mi-chan tricked me. She dressed up like Shi-chan...when Rena came back to Hinamizawa...that's when she struck. Rena tried to defend herself, managed to get a couple cuts on Mi-chan, but s-she had Shi-chan's taser...

[a soft hiccup, followed by a sniff]

...they still want to kill him. Mi-chan says she's going to leave me here until I "come to my senses," b-but she lied. She won't let me out until they think he's dead, and probably Ryoko-chan, too.

...I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry...

[ooc: posted a few hours after this; all replies voice]

They're not waking up. They can't wake up, they won't wake up. They can't be dead, they're still warm, still barely breathing, and Rena won't allow it, she won't let them be dead...but why won't they wake up?

It's been so busy, what with school, and Keiichi-kun's homework suddenly attacking him - I hope he's okay - that Rena completely forgot about it! I hope it won't be too bad...there is Christmas coming up, but Rena's usually so good with remembering dates!

Ano...I hope he won't be upset.

Rena should be happy that Keiichi-kun's found his way onto the community. That means that everyone in our club has been here - even if Rika-chan and Satoko-chan haven't been on in awhile.

But he seems worried...I wonder if he remembers...and he's already afraid of Akabane-tousan. I think he thinks...but that wouldn't happen, that won't happen...

Rena just wants everyone to be happy.

Everything Rena's done has been to protect them. To protect her father, to protect Akabane-tousan. N-no one's found out, but Ooishi talked to me for a little while after my friends and I got together for a club game...asked Rena about the festival...other than that, Rena's been all right, just staying with Dad a little while longer and reading a lot...

( Locked from Higurashi cast )

[ooc: Plot continues! Also, Rena isn't really staying with her dad, but in her hideaway in the Hinamizawa dump. If anyone asks though, she's sticking to her "with Dad" story.]

A SHOUT OUT TO ALL HIGURASHI PLAYERS - AND AKABANE, TOO, SINCE YOU'RE KINDA INVOLVED.

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( Cut for convenience )

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I...I got carnations yesterday at school.

Some of the other girls did, too - Mi-chan and Rika-chan, especially - Rena wasn't expecting any. But they were there - three red carnations, tied together with a white bow. No name, no anything. Keiichi-kun didn't give them to me...and Rena doesn't really talk to anyone else in school...I wonder...

Ano; school is almost finished for the summer, and then there's the Watanagashi festival again. It should be a very nice one this year; Tomitake-san is supposed to come by and take pictures again, and Rika-chan is doing her usual performance. She always looks so cute in her priestess outfit!

Rika-chan says that if I talk to Irie-san about it...Rena might be able to go home for the summer. I'd like to come back for the festival but...I miss being home. I've been staying more and more often with my father, but he's seeing another lady - and I don't really like her. At all.

I have to leave.

He's here, he's here, he's here he's here...why won't he go away, he's watching me again, standing over my bed, just staring and staring and staring and even when I sleep I can feel him watching over me, why won't he just go away go away go away go away go away go away go away go away go away go away...

The nightmares - they don't go away. The one last night was even worse than the one before, and almost as bad as the very first one. They...they just...

( Read more... )

[ooc: cut for possibly gruesome imagery.]

Influenced by the post here, I decided to tl;dr a bit about Rena's childhood. I will warn you though, there are spoilers for the final arc of Higurashi no Naku Koroni, so if you'd rather not have anything ruined, I wouldn't read this. If you don't, well...have fun!

[Edit] Decided to add screencaps as visual aids. Some of these caps are gruesome, so if you're squeamish, be careful.

( MAJOR TL;DR - this was much longer than intended... )

And that’s just the tip of it; it doesn’t even begin to go into her Oyashiro-sama influenced psychosis in the other arcs of the manga/animé/game (since all of this [childhood background] is covered in Tsumihoroboshi-hen [Atonement], Rena’s arc and the final one in Higurashi no Naku Koroni). It does however, help to explain her overt devotion to Akabane, DDD-wise.

[Rustle of clothing being pulled on, then a soft, worried sigh.]

Ano...what's going on? I woke up this morning, and my clothes were small, so small...I tried to get my school uniform on, but...I'm...

[Her voice drops to a embarrassed whisper.]

They're bigger; my blouse doesn't fit anymore. And my skirt's much too short now...the only thing that fits Rena now is her bathrobe, and even that's short...

[Another sigh.]

...his birthday's this weekend, too. Rena found out, and wanted to do something special, but I can't now. Not like this.

Rena's back to normal again! At least she was home when it happened, but it was the middle of the night again. Ano...it was strange being a kitten, but fun at the same time. But I'm glad I'm my normal self again, so glad!

Especially since school is starting up again soon! Rena's a little anxious about it though - high school classes are much more difficult than the junior high ones are...

( Locked to Akabane )

Because why the hell not. *jumps up on the end of the bandwagon and climbs in*

I list the characters I play with their journals. You ask questions, on your IC journal or OOC journal, it doesn't matter. They answer IC. Okay? Okay. It can be about their username, what their favorite food is...whatever your mind can come up with.

♠ Ban Midou jagan_glare
♠ Hojo hellwithethics
♠ Nabooru sandy_requiem
♠ Rena Ryuugu cleaver_bitch

Put here because my personal journal is friends-only, and Rena hasn't done anything in awhile.

Rena just looked at the calendar on Akabane-tousan's computer to be sure that what the calendar in her room said was right.

My birthday's coming up soon! Next Monday, I'll be...sixteen.

Wow...

What should I do for it? Rena doesn't know if she wants to have a big party...Mi-chan's plotting something after class though, because I saw her talking with Kei-chan and Satoko-chan about something, and when I tried to walk over, they were quiet, very quiet! I wonder what they're planning.

Maybe we can just go out to dinner, Akabane-tousan? Something quiet and small? I think you'd prefer that.

Akabane-tousan,

I went with Mi-chan over to Keiichi-kun's house; she said she found him unconscious and bleeding in the little forest not far from his house.  You remember that place, right?

I know you told me not to go near him until he's better, but Mi-chan will be there too.  I...I'm sorry.  I'll be home tonight though - I got you something nice for tomorrow, but no peeking!  It's a surprise!

I love you, tousan.

Love,
Rena-chan

[ooc: This is the note Rena left for Akabane on the kitchen counter; she's no longer home, so she won't be responding to comments.  Her death will be posted later this afternoon on the community, forward-dated appropriately :3

Also, strikeout is what Rena wrote, then tried to erase.  It's still legible, though.]

It's getting scarier now.  He kept asking about what happened five years ago...about the coverup...but what does Rena know about that?  All she knows is what she saw on the news when it happened!  He tried accusing Mi-chan of knowing more than she was letting on...told us that the ohagi we made for him was so good he...bled.

Why would someone bleed from eating food?

Then...then today, when I was walking to visit my father's house, Keiichi-kun accused me of following him.  He...he had the bat with him.  Sa-Satoshi-kun's bat.  K-Keiichi-kun pointed the bat and told me to walk ahead of him - I almost thought he was going to hit me with it...I told him I couldn't help but look as if I was following him because my father's house is the same way, but...He started yelling at me again, yelling about the "serial murders," about a man in black telling him to leave me alone, and then he...he just ran into the woods, still clutching the bat...

Everything was all right before the Watanagashi Festival...when we heard about Tomitake-san and Takano-san's deaths, though...

Rena's scared...

Rena's hand hurts, and it's still bleeding. I don't know why Keiichi-kun got so angry...I know he's home alone, so Rena thought she'd just be nice and bring some dinner over for him. But then he...he got crazy...

All I did was ask him what was wrong! When I went to open the door, Keiichi-kun...he slammed my hand in the door. Kept screaming at me...."GET OUT! GO AWAY!"...and it didn't sound like him at all, he sounded like...like he was possessed.

It...it can't be Oyashiro-sama...it can't be...

Rena said she was sorry. Even when she had to pull her own hand out of the door, and even though it started bleeding, and even when Keiichi-kun went to his room and started talking to someone on the phone, Rena stood outside and apologized. Even when it started raining and storming, she still apologized.

Ano...I should go home now. My hand still hurts...it's still bleeding...I wonder if it's broken...I'll leave the food with Rika-chan and Satoko-chan...and get home before it starts storming worse.

[ ooc: plot start! strikeout was Rena talking aloud to herself. ]